Mind Montage

In my head, I have the most extensive, most beautiful photo collage of you. Sadly I can't print a hard copy of it. And that is why I am always looking forward to every night's long slumber (in our case hot mornings). Because in there I know, I can revisit those beautiful, vivid images of you.

A Not So Open Letter For You

Hi,

I should be sleeping now, but since I’ve just had my lunch and I still need to rest a bit before hitting the sack, I felt like writing you an open letter. A letter that I won’t be personally sending to you; a letter that contains everything that I feel or think about when I am reminded of you. A letter that I wanted you to know about but I am too scared to directly send you.

When I first saw you, all I saw was just a typical college graduate who’s trying to land a job. Yes you’re glowing; that beaming flawless complexion is something that’s hard to ignore. But I first really took a good look at you was when you started working. We all introduced ourselves to each other and all I could say at that time was, “ang cute ne’tong babaeng ‘to. Charming”. That’s about it.

Strangely though, every day, the feeling got stranger and stronger. I don’t really know if it’s because I was starting to like you or is it because of our colleagues’ nagging teasing. Then you added me on Facebook. To be honest, nag-feeling ako. Ako lang ba naman yung ni-add mong guy sa IT group.  (Though I honestly don’t know if you really added me up by yourself or is it because somebody influenced you into doing it, just like when you talked to me when everybody else made you ask me to get them some pancit malabon) It must have meant something. Pero syempre, that was only wishful thinking. I was seriously hoping that it really meant something but well, I can’t really be so sure. It could actually mean nothing. 

I was very happy with the past few days that we were conversing. I wanted to get to know you more. Sadly, the endless teasing has been making you uncomfortable. What I want you to know is that I really like you and I am dead serious about you. But it’s not like I am going to court you agad. I honestly don’t even know if I have a chance with you, or if you like me too to make me even court you.

I know you might be feeling awkward when I'm around, or when the guys in the office tease us. Let me tell you something though, you don’t have to feel icky around me. All that I want you to know is that for now, I am okay with this set-up. I love admiring you from a distance. Creepy as it is, I want to silently steal glances at you, while you are giggling with the rest of them gals. I want you to know that you are one of the reasons why I am inspired reporting for work lately. I want you to know how your smile makes my day and that your cute voice makes me smile. This might not necessarily be love. Perhaps not yet. All I know right now is that I like you and that you’re the one who brightens up my day. A brightness that starts at 11pm and ends around 8 am after you've punched your out entry on your time card. From Monday nights to Saturday mornings excluding holidays.


You are my inspiration. You are the one that fires up my passion. Thank you. Here's to more charmed weeknights with you. Pero sana, may pag-asa no?